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Wednesday, May 1, 2019

When I am Afraid | FEAR


I'm usually a very stable, rational person. I would say that in the midst of chaos I am the one that is calm and can see beyond the situation. Chaos and confusion are often areas where I thrive.  I believe that's the way God has made me. I'm not saying I'd like chaos or areas of instability but that these situations don't paralyze me.

Yesterday from the corner of my eye I thought I saw something move on my shower curtain. At first I thought it was my own strand of hair through the side of my peripheral vision. When I got distracted again I took a second look to find out it was a fast moving long legged insect.

I don't know where this fear has come from. I do recall as a young girl my mom being afraid of certain insects and I believe that that fear became mine as well.

I decided to write about this today in an effort to confront this unrealistic paralyzing fear.  After all, I’m a pretty rational person!

As a life coach I can sit with anyone and bring them through step by step on how to achieve a certain goal. Today I am my own client.

This is a deep seated fear that I've had for decades; entomophobia, an abnormal and persistent fear of insects. It’s not all insects!  I can hold ladybugs, caterpillars, ants, butterflies, lightning bugs, but I can not handle insects that crawl fast have long legs and scurry.  Perhaps is the hiding part that really frightens me.  In my mind, I am afraid that they will surface again and so the cycle begins afresh.

The fear from these small insect caused me to stop all activity and left me unproductive for almost an hour yesterday. That's a wasted hour of life!

What else are we afraid off? 

There are hundreds and hundreds of known fears.  Alektorophobia, fear of chickens. Pogonophobia, fear of beards. Hypochondria, fear of illness.  Verminophobia, fear of germs.  Theophobia, an unhealthy fear of God or religion.  And on and on it goes!

It’s irrational but it feels real! 

I know that the Lord can help me.  The Scriptures speak about anxiety and all those things that grip us and cause us to be weighed down.  Often a phobia feels just as real as a true threat. 

I will cast my anxiety on the Lord, because he cares for me. (1 Peter 5:7)  I will present this fear to the Lord, ask him for direction and his peace.   I will remain in constant prayer to the one who is able to help me.  I will meditate on what is true.  

For me the anxiety is rooted in a false perception.  I know that these insects are not on me, chewing on me or causing me death.  The fear is the “what if?” 

Today,  I am asking myself, “what if, what?”

What are you afraid off?

The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. I have begun today with addressing the fear.  It already has lost some grip on me just by my confession.

So what are you afraid off?  Realistic or imagined.  God is able to help us.  Seek help, talk to someone who is qualified to help you overcome that which keeps us up at night. Confide in a friend.  Put it in your journal.  But, begin addressing it today!

Ironically I worked for an exterminating company for 10 years. Since my job was administrative I never really dealt with the insects themselves.

We can be in the midst of what we fear and yet never overcome it.  Today, I choose to face my fear one step at a time.

Chime in and let me know how you have overcome a phobia or how I can pray for you in your journey.

God bless you!~Liz