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Thursday, August 24, 2017

It can't hurt me if its dead!

"As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work." (John 9:4)

Yesterday was a very difficult day for me. When Rheumatoid Arthritis (“RA”) flares us it does not care what day of the week it is. It’s not concerned that you had plans. The pain comes from all angles and makes no apologies for the agony it causes.

Disruptions of life!

Whether we are dealing with a physical trial or other changes that challenge our daily lives, we all have a choice to make.

So, yesterday my husband had to take day off from work. He literally was my crutch to get up, sit down, lay down and rise again. It seemed that every 25 minutes I had to move my body to relieve it from pain. This was our ordeal for 24 hours that began at 3 AM. He cooked and literally fed me. Let’s just say it was a day of heartache.

I am what some would call a “type A personality”. I can’t sit still. I have to-do list everywhere. 

I'm not sure I understand the words “I can’t”.

After a day like yesterday, family and friends advise me to relax and recoup and regain my strength. I agree, except….you got it… I CAN’T SIT STILL for long.

“As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work.” (John 9:4)

I believe rest is a gift from the Lord and I’ll quickly resort to that to be refreshed. But as I get restored I am ready and willing to continue to do the work that the Lord has from me. If that means laundry for my family, there I am. If it means sharing life with a friend, use me Lord. If his church needs my attendance, you got it...on the road I go.  Idle hands are good for nothing.

We must be ready. God will infuse strength when we are weak. 

I get my strength through reading his Word and singing songs of praise! Yeah!!!

Today I begin the administration of a new medication; a new road to travel! It’s been months since this journey began.  This pain has to go!

I visited with a friend today. A spider was crawling down from the ceiling. As I called her attention to it, I was also reminded that she does not like spiders. So I said, “I know you are afraid of spiders.”  Before I could finish the sentence, she replied, “ It can’t hurt me if its dead.” Wack! WOW.

Why tell you this little excerpt from today? If this disease if beating me up. If it brings grief and pain to my life. If fear tries to creep in, I must do something.

Truly trying this medication (like all medications) has risks.

I won’t let RA instill fear in me. Something must be done. After much thought and council, the new road began today.

RA can't hurt me if it’s dead. The RA effects must be stopped; it can't continue to  ruin this body that God gave me.  I can't just sit and do nothing! 

No matter what may come, I am his. I belong to the Lord who saved me. The Bible says, he is a healer, to the Healer I will call!   All wisdom comes from the Lord.

“As long as it is day, we must do the works of him who sent me. Night is coming, when no one can work.” (John 9:4)

Use me Lord. When I am weak, you are strong! (2 Corinthians 12:10b)

God bless you!~Liz